Charity

This morning I woke up at around 7:30, got the the church at about 8, and he helped set up until the kids got there around 9. I had a really good time, and I honestly have to say I didn't even look at the time, except when the parts that I were in came up, but other than that I didn't text anyone or anything. I was focused on helping the kids have a good time and have a good time myself. It made me feel like a kid again, they brought out the "elementary kid" in me. They made me laugh at the things I would never think was funny, but since it wasn't a really serious retreat, I could loosen up and mess around. It made me remember what it was like to be a little kid, no worries, no nothing. I remember when I was a kid I used to worry over little things, like when I could get my next toy, if i would miss my favorite TV show. I didn't think about anything else today, but to just have fun. This was all because of God, he brought us all together, and he blessed us with the great time we had, praising him together as one. Our group name was Charity, Rosemariae thought of a chant that went like, "From the east to the west, Charity is the best! Donate, don't hate!" LOL, damn I had a great time.

Heart & Schedule

Anyway, I brought home a box of pizza, a whole box was left over, I guess someone ordered too much, hahaha. My dad decided to get our refrigerator fixed instead of just buying a new one, oh well, at least I can enjoy my oreos and milk again! I'm eating right now.. :)


I get to shave Masashi's head next week.. and next week is spring break, WOO!
And yaaay, the girl that makes my day is on, I should talk to her and tell her how my day went. Although she probably doesn't feel the same for me, and she probably doesn't know how I feel, all that matters is that I like talking to her. Today was a good day; thanks God. Well I guess the day did turn bad, I don't think she likes to talk to me as much as I do, or even like to talk to me for that matter. Still, thank you God for everything.

Bittersweet

Shit, so my refrigerator broke 2 days ago, and when I was going to the freezer to get some food, I realized the ice from the icebox got all drippy, so I grabbed an ice cream to see if it was melting and it was all mushy. So I have to wait until Tuesday to get a brand new refrigerator; fuck you Sears. For now I have to use a gay ass fucking ice box to keep all of my food, wack.

Fuck..

On the other hand, yesterday I ordered a Nikon D60 kit for $440 and gave my other camera back (Canon EOS 20D). It comes with an 18-50mm lens, 55-200mm lens, SD card, card reader, tripod, monopod, lens cleaning kit, all this other good shit. I thought it was a pretty good deal so I got it, just in time for spring break! One more week to go!

BEAST!

So some good & bad things happened.. it's neutral now.
Later tonight I have a meeting for the First Communion retreat.. so yeah, busy busy.

I got home from my retreat meeting at around 9:30, it's 10:46 right now, and I need to get up tomorrow morning and be at the church by 8AM. I should sleep soon, hahaha. Anyway, a few minutes ago, my dad told me that he finished his coin collection. Yeah, he has all 50 states, lolol. Fuckin' legit.

My dad does some pretty dope shit.
I'm playing around with photoshop right now, PEACE.

Spread the West

After school, Jude and I went straight to Westminster High School for Yin's jam. When we got there, it was pretty packed and we thought it would be good, but instead, we got kicked out by some white douche.

Jude's hops.

Twin Crew!
So we had to walk to Sigler Park. Wack, but whatever.

Some beasts. (Baby Whale and Vincent)

The longest walk.
Yin took awhile to get his hands on speakers so me, Jude and Alex went to McDonalds to grab a bite.

Alex&I
Johnny met up with us there and out of nowhere Tiffany came, LOL. She bought me ice cream :).

ICE CREAM!

Alex and I entered as Kanguhrang, got the idea from Banguhrang, oh dang, I got the lyrics. I forgot who we battled, but 8 crews signed up, and we made it to the finals, and I didn't even know it was the finals. So then we won, and we didn't even know we won, what the fuck? Oh well it was fun, good job to everyone that came out. Although there were wack judges, but whatever :p .

WIN

2 More Weeks

Two more weeks until spring break, pretty excited. Finally, a break from school after like 4 months. School was pretty good today, things are getting easier, except for Algebra 2, I'm confused as hell. Well after school today, Elaine and Jaynee visited Pacifica, what a surprise.. Hahaha.

I went home, and I ate a bunch of double stuft oreos and I dropped one in my milk :( . FML, lolol and Kim called it my moment of failure in life, bitch. Hahah, hopefully I'll get a new lens by spring break so I could take some shots at the beach or something with Jude.

She's cute, she makes me smile, she gives me butterflies, she makes me happy when I talk to her, but she doesn't know this. I know I'm not the best looking guy ever, I know. Sometimes I wish I could be a better person than I am now. I don't feel good today, so I'm going to session at the gym with Jude, and put my soul on the floor and forget about everything.

Nothing's Fair

Went to school, it went pretty good, didn't finish my Genocide rough draft, so I went to school without it, turns out it's actually due on Friday. My mom picked me up and in the car I asked if I could get my permit during spring break, and she said maybe and changed her mind again, fuck that shit. She said if i get good grades then we'll talk, and I've been improving a lot, but she lied apparently. Fuck school, lol.

And there's been this girl I've been interested in, I just want to spend time with her and get to know her better I guess. The weird part is that I think about her from time to time, but I think about her before I sleep, and when I wake up, what the hell is wrong with me. Shit, I have this feeling that I should get out before I get myself in too deep. I'm not sad, but I just wish I could tell her how I felt. I've honestly never had trouble telling it how it is, putting myself out there, but she makes me shy, I don't know what it is. Oh well, life isn't fair, but you gotta love it.

Sundays

So today, I woke up around 9. Talked on aim, and went to church at 11. The guest priest was from some missionary, but he said a load of bullshit. He didn't even make sense, and talked for the longest time. He talked about how Catholics give up their faith the easiest. Bull. He said a lot of people are religious and believe on their own terms, and not on God's terms. The one thing I don't get is, if we believe in God, why do we need religion, why do we go through all this shit.

Today I'm skipping TNTT, I don't really feel like going, and besides I need to work on my Genocide paper. Fucking Cambodia..

I was looking for some new equipment for my camera, but I'm still kinda confused on what to get, I was thinking about getting a Speedlite for sure, a fisheye lens, and a backpack. On the other hand I kind of want an EF 17-40mm wide angle lens, so I'm not exactly sure.

A good friend of mine told me his sister is leaving for Iraq tonight, all I have to say is stay strong, we love you, and everything's gonna be alright.

Today is a windy day, I decided to take some pictures, and I was on my roof, I couldn't help but notice there was a homeless man walking on the railroad. A slight sense of compassion went through my head and I felt bad. Isn't it crazy how we all can feel so sorry for a person we don't know, and yet we hurt people all the time, and we're so senseless to notice that we do what we do.

While I was doing my Genocide Paper, I was eating Taco Bell;

And it just so happened, that when I was grabbing some hot sauce, I pulled out 2 times in a row; "Will you marry me?" and I was like, YES, I LOVE YOU TACO BELL! LOL.

Adventurous

Today, I woke up around 8; I know, what the fuck right? It was probably because I slept around 8PM, hahaha. Anyway, Ken went to my house again, and around 1:30 or so, we went to the German Shepherd Rescue Event at a Pet Smart in Tustin, it was pretty cool, and I got to introduce my mom to some dogs. I didn't get any pictures of the dogs though, sorry guys, hahaha.

This was the spot we went to.

I was about to bitch slap this nigga.

After I got back, I went to church for a retreat team meeting; I'm a leader for the 2009 First Communion. It feels good to help out, and I remember everything about my retreat when I was about 8, and I want them to have fun just as I did back in the day.

After that, Jude called me and all 3 of us, including Ken, went back to my house to chill. We ate my mom's spaghetti and Jude says it's better than his parents, and I said, why do you think I'm so fat, cause my mom makes some good food, LOL. We decided to make a video making fun of Henry's "TOPROCK ROCK STYLE (W/SHOES)" video. We're assholes, hahaha.

Jude thinking of some crazy Rock style. LOL
You can watch the video here; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHd6nQXHtAI

After that Jude left my house to hit up a party, what a bitch.. So then Ken makes me cut his hair, and I was fucking lazy, but we compromised; he told me he would sweep up his hair, and I was like alright man, whatever, ahahha. This nigga..

I wanted to leave a tail, but he said his mom would kill him, LOL.

Right now I'm talking to a good friend; her name's Theresa, but I call her Therezaaa. LOL. Well, I know you have problems, we all do, but I'm here for you and never think that way, there's always gonna be a brighter day for every dark night.
PEACE AND LOVE; Lyndon

4CODY

So my nigga Cody Takeji Ishii (sexy name huh, for the bitches.) aims me up, and asks me if I'm gonna write in my blog, so I was like damn people actually read my blogs? I was stupefied, fuck yeah I just used a Night vocabulary word.

Today at school I didn't do much, I ate a lot, got a chili cheese dog from Cody, thanks, it had sex with my taste buds. I brought up how Japanese girls moan funny, and Cody asked what do Vietnamese girls sound like, and I said I don't know, ask Tina, LOL. Then Kevin moaned like a Korean girl; nigga watches too much Korean drama and shit.

When I got home I was under the influence and shit, and I ate a shit load of food. Took a nap, and I got raped by a charley horse when I woke up. I was like, nigga please, FML. Oh yeah, I got some new shots; http://flickr.com/lyndonlikesfood
Thanks for correcting me Kim, you're pretty cool for an ugly guy.<3

FIN.

Done with the CAHSEE, the math part was hella easy. I had to go to 4th period though, but whatever it was an easy day, note cards still due, but on Friday 'cause Terreri has chemotherapy; bless her soul.

At lunch this cat was being a bitch 'cause of life problems and shit, and taking it out on me, wow. Nigga needs to grow up and realize the world ain't all sunshine and rainbows, and that he's not gonna get fed everything he wants. The world fucks you up all the time, you just have to take the hits and keep moving, that's life. But instead he had to be a little bitch, grow up. Don't take shit out on others, that's just stupid. Learn some fuckin' respect.

CAHSEE.

Today I took the CAHSEE, it was pretty easy, but I got stuck on the writing portion. I didn't know who to write about; the prompt asked to write about someone in my community that made a positive impact, so I wrote about Batman. LOL. Hahahaha, fucking Henry wrote about a guy named Mr. Chang. Good shit, pretty easy day, I have no homework besides 10 notecards due Thursday.

Besides all of that, I'm getting my nikon today, my dad says it's a D20, but I've never heard of it. Oh well, I'm still pretty stoked since I don't have to pay for any of it, hahaha. I'll post up some pictures with it when I get it. My mom's making fried chicken, yum :)

Today I talked to Jay and she made me laugh, thanks Jay! :)

Here's some photos that I took with my camera, it turns out it's a Canon EOS 20D, my bad guys, hahaha.


LULS

Pedophilia.

HOPE.

So I just got home from the hope jam, pretty dope. Kid David and Roxrite were there, hahah. Dope battles, especially the 3 way with knuckleheads. Gamblerz didn't show up though, but they were in town, too cool you know, hahaha. Cyphers were pretty dope, I cyphered a bit with Alex and we invited yin to have an MC cypher with us, lolol. Hip hop is the shit guys, it's more than a music genre, it's culture.

On the other hand, I'm talking to her again, I hope we can stay good friends :) I have to admit that I kept thinking about her when she was mad at me, and before I go to bed. Life is slowly returning back to normal, yay.

Good Friday

Not so good. Cough got worse, headaches.

So I made some mistakes, I still like her, but I'm 100% sure nothing's gonna happen. I keep thinking about her, all the time. She texted me yesterday and said sorry. I forgave her, well.. 'cause it wasn't her fault I guess. eeeeeeeeghhhhhh, I'm gonna go lay down..

Untitled.

Today was alright, I just got home from the gym with Jude and Ken. I'm feeling not so ill today, hahaha.

Well, there so happens to be this girl I liked, but I fucked up. I was forgiven, but now I don't know what to do. Oh well, I guess there's nothing I could do anyway.

HAPPY GLOOMY DAY.

Well, during the day, I felt like shit.. and I slept through 6th again. So today I spit some dope rhymes again, lolol, just kidding. During P.E I was hella cold, and I thought I was gonna cough up my lungs or some shit.

Then Tiffany visited me after school, we went to Subway, and I started feeling a lot better. She made me a bracelet, ahaha. Then we walked to her tutoring place.. that was a long journey, hahahha. After that.. some broke ass nigga asked me to give him $4 for a bus pass, I mean come on, I said I didn't have money. Well, I had a pretty good day today.

Inspiration.

All of us are diamonds in the sand, but damn he was gifted. RIP.


By the way, for those who read my blogs, thanks a lot, it makes me feel good that someone cares and they'll take a minute to understand me a bit.

Still ILL.

Well, today I did feel a bit better, but in 6th period I was gone. I fell asleep the whole period, hahaha. Damn.. and Kevin was talking to me about some haunted asylum in downey, I wanna check that shit out. Maybe one day, when me and Alex go there, and Left 4 Dead that shit up, hahaha. It's hot right now.. stupid fever.

And I still need to finish my French and English hw. Wow, I can't believe I have to draw a food pyramid for French, and my poem for english is due tomorrow, fml. I have to pretend to be a Jew in a concentration camp and write a poem, fuck.

ILL.

Stayed home today, I woke up, felt like shit. All I did was chill and watch TV, lay in bed, until my mom got home and woke me up. Fuck, I wanted to sleep longer, hahaha.

So last night I was reading a book by Bruce Lee on "daily living", and one quote that really stuck out for me was, "Absence in love is like water on fire, a little quickens, but much extinguishes".

Heh, makes you wonder.

ABSOLUTION&FORGIVENESS.

I've never felt this bad before, I knew people disliked me, but someone hates me now? Hate is such a strong, harsh word. Hah, I didn't think that this would fuck me up, but it did. I want to be forgiven, it was all my fault after all, but I don't think I'll ever be forgiven. If you're reading this, I'm sorry, and I understand why you feel the way you do. I had trouble falling asleep last night, and when I woke up I still felt like crap, I don't know if anyone knows how I feel, but I just lost a friend. I fucked up this time, and there's no going back on it.

Contemplating Suicide

Is it normal to feel that if you were gone, all your problems would go away? It seems like the bitch's way out, but something's different this time, I keep thinking about it, but on a deeper level. What would happen if I was gone? It would be so easy for me not to go through all these problems, and just go away, forever. But I know things will get better one day, I really need to take my own advice. Life's a bitch but fuck it, I got better things to do than to mope around all day. Well, I just wanted to vent, peace.

Ernie Halter - Whisper
Just for you Loc, if you're reading this, that's our jam, and I know you're the only guy that knows how I'm feeling.

No Title.

So uh, she told me she hates me, oh well, I was waiting for that. I guess I'm not up to par with society, not good enough. But you know what, that's life, I'm probably good enough to some people, and that's all I need. Oh well, I'll never forget about her, but life goes on, and so will I. It's a shame she doesn't even want to be a friend anymore, we had some good times. She doesn't know that I still think about her sometimes, and at times I wish she was still my friend, at least. At least a friend. Is that so hard, to have a friend? I guess so. Sometimes I wonder what kind of person I am, and sometimes I hate the person that I am, and when someone tells me they hate me, it reassures me of the type of person I am. Am I really that bad of a person that you would hate? I mean, what did I really do to deserve this, I just wanted to get by, you know? But I'm grateful for the people that are there for me, always. God is love, love is God.

tigerstance alex: i got a toolbox.. if u need me to come over..
tigerstance alex: ya know..
tigerstance alex: i can fix ur heart
tigerstance alex: and give u good time.

I love you nigga.

Reality TV Shows

Today I went to rancho with my niggas, to support yin, noodles and "P Crew", hah. It was pretty fun, I just realized my ability to rhyme, LOL. Damn, that was a pretty fun night, I just wish I could of hung out with them afterwards, I haven't seen all of 'em in awhile. Well I got to hang out with my bfflz linh! We haven't hung out in forever.



My ninjas.



Jude made a game up where whenever a girl looks at you, you have to wink or blow a kiss at them, LOL. That was a big fail, they all laughed at Jude. Oh well, it's all good, we had a lot of fun. I liked how all of us got hyped when James and Tony went up, hahaha. Big props to them, and to James for some crazy abstract shitt.

JUST ANOTHER DAY.

Well, today I went to hip hop club to session. Battled with Che as usual, but then these krumpers came.. and they wanted to battle Che and Matt, and they had to use krumping music.. awkward, but it's all good. I respect krumping and all but that's just not me, haha.

So there was this girl that told me she didn't know if she could trust me again, and that I would leave her for another girl, but in the end she went for another guy, wow, fuck that shit. Fuck lying bitches, I don't need that shit in my life. I got over her, but the feeling of being played with hurts. You know who you are.

On the other side, I'm happy I have my turtle, I know she won't do that to me.
HIIII TURTLE<3 (:

A NEW DAY.

So today, I went to school and after school I went to the orthodontist to get my braces off, YEEEE BOOOOOOOOOYYYYY!! It was pretty annoying when he was scraping off the glue.. but whatever.
Today marks Michelle & I's one month of seeing eachother, I can't believe she kept track hahah :D

I'm really feeling this song right now.

Astounded - Bran Van 3000

JUST THE BEGINNING.

So today, I decided to make a blog, I like the feeling of releasing my feelings onto something, but I hate writing, so here I am. So all I did today was go to school, it was alright, I had to serve my fucking detention but whatever. We went to miss Duncan's class so it was all good. She's a hot teacher.. HAH.

After school, I went home ate, and I felt the inspiration to session & push myself to the next level. I sessioned for a good hour.. and I have to say, I'm gonna be fucking sore, hahaha. OH WELL, that's hip hop. To the top..