bad day.

people constantly try to walk all over me and underestimate me, even when i prove them wrong. FUCK THE WORLD

live, learn.

whenever i look in my psychology notebook, i find the paper i filled out for Mr. Roy. the last question gets me every time. "how are you enjoying your life? why?" my response was, i love my life, because everything is going in my favor. then he asked me, "what if they don't?" then it hit me. i don't really know what i'd do. i'm lost right now, it's like i don't know where the ground beneath me is anymore. eh, that's life right? live, love, learn?

life.

kinda sucks.

wtf?

i don't know what's up anymore.
actually. i do sort of.
and it was all my fault, i don't know what to do anymore, i hate myself.
i'm never fucking good enough for anyone, i give up.

eeeeeeeeh.

i'm afraid you're gonna forget about me. i know you don't have the time to talk to me, so i try to talk to you as much as i can. i don't want to lose you. even if you can't be mine, i still want to be your friend.

i wish you knew..

the moment of truth.

it all happened so fast. "Fuck the world, don't ask me for shit. Everything you get you gotta work hard for it". you can have anything you want right? as long as you really want it? maybe.

i miss you. i hope nothing changes.

on the other hand, yesterday john was at my house doing nothing as usual and we watched waiting and still waiting. he left at like 11, gay, we didn't even get to fap. LOL. today i am going to the swapmeet with tom and selling my camera hopefully if the nigga doesn't flake out.

fearful.

i'm afraid of the future, what if it doesn't work out? would we still talk? i'm afraid of the fact that you might not like me as much anymore, afraid that you're tired of me. i feel like a big disappointment, i disappoint a lot of people.. family, friends, teachers. i'm really confused right now.

today.

was alright, school went by quickly, thanks to late start. i really miss lany, i didn't talk to her much today, but she's busy so i understand.

went to a vball game at rancho today with John, Jude, Tom and Mitch. it was rancho vs west. rancho owned west like no other..

john stalled in the parking lot trying to clear a speed bump, LOL. i took a dope ass picture of his car, no photoshop, that's really his plate ;)

monday.

so yeah.. school's been easy. finished my homework due wednesday, finished my trig/stats hw in class. i hope i stay on top of things and don't stray too far from what i need to do.

tomorrow i'm taking pictures for LQ's girl's volleyball.. fun. and i'm selling my camera tomorrow hopefully, if he can make it. if not, i'm selling it on wedsneday.

uuuuuuughhh, the Nikon vs. Canon people are pretty annoying. it's obvious they don't know their shit because Nikon competes with Canon, they're competitors for a reason, they're both on top in the industry and they are equal. it's a matter of personal taste.

maybe

i'm just crazy.

TGIF

yay, good thing school started on thursday, the weekend came quickly. everything feels routine again already, laaaaaame. it all begins again on monday. i hope all my classes are as laid back as they seem. after this year, i'm pretty much done with school. no need to worry about senior year. i have a feeling this year is going to fly by even faster than sophomore year, wooooooo!! life is happening so fast, i'm getting my license in a few months, but i could remember my first day of high school, exactly what i wore, everything. it felt like it was just yesterday. now that i realize i shouldn't be in a rush to grow up, because if you think about it, a lot of older people wish they were young again, i should enjoy my time and take it slow.

goodbye summer

hello new school year, so far things seem promising. my teachers seem easy and laid back, but i especially like psychology. i plan on getting good grades and all that.. hahaha.

i'm really looking forward to michelle's volleyball game, which i am taking pictures of, yaaaaay. she told her team mates that i was going to be taking pictures of them, and she made me seem all good, i hope i don't disappoint.

i really miss my girlfriend.

down.

pretty sad about some things that are happening, but adversity is what life is about.
if it weren't for the sad and hard times, we would never be able to understand what happiness is. sometimes i'd be happier than i've ever been my whole life, and i could never describe it. sometime's i'd be at an all time low, but that's just life. and i just have to keep my head held high and deal with it, i know what i want, and i'm gonna do whatever it takes.

on the other hand i finally picked up my canon 40D, yay.

life

happens. i guess.